TERESA- Hey Family,
Well, first with the really AMAZING news! Brother Ian Smith got baptized on Thursday and the majority of the ward was there to support him! His dad, Alex, even came to give him support so that was really nice. I asked his dad after the service what he thought about it and he said that it was nice, that he liked the scriptures and talks and all that. I asked him though how he felt about it and he said, “nope, I'm not joining your church”. I laughed and told him that I was just asking, he laughed too and said he did enjoy it.
Ok so I bet you are tired of hearing all these letters gone wrong! Because I have some more not so good news for you. Everything was going just great until Saturday. We tried to get a hold of Brother Smith and he didn't answer (that never happens). So we knew it was bad. We just ended up dropping by his flat to see what was wrong. Needless to say he was not fit for confirmation the next day on Sunday. I was heartbroken. We talked it out though with Bishop and President Griffiths and that made me feel a little bit better. But I was still way sad. He can still get confirmed but at a future date, when he's able to sort out his problems. Now just so you know, I am NOT the kind of missionary that rushes people into the font. They do it when they say they are ready to make those promises. We have worked so hard with him over these past couple of months and have invested SO much time in him that when he fails to progress and starts to digress I get so sad and disappointed. This is what parenting HAS to feel like. I just don't understand how they just don't get it, you know, the MAJOR importance of the gospel and how vital it is to our existence. After all, that is exactly WHY we are here. Nothing is more important than that because everything else then is just temporary. It was very saddening for me. But after talking to President, Bishop, and Sister Peterson I started to see that those things are real weaknesses for some people. It's not at all that Brother Smith wasn't taking it seriously, it was just a habit and a sincere weakness for him that he's had his whole life. I'm starting to understand that that's what the Atonement is for. Heavenly Father knew we would blow it and make mistakes and mess up, so that is exactly why he sent his son, Jesus Christ, to suffer for our sins. After ALL we can do, He will make up the difference. I realized as well that it's not my place to judge. I mean, look at me? I am FAR from perfect and I definitely have my own set backs and weaknesses that I have to overcome myself. So the last thing anyone else needs is someone criticizing them for their mistakes, I know that wouldn't make me feel good or worth anything. My job is to encourage, uplift, and invite. Our Redeemer will handle the rest. And what a wonderful thing that is as well, that I don't have to carry that heavy burden but that He's got it under control. So I am feeling better about the situation every day. It's OK, even President said that it's OK. Things will take work but we and him are willing to put in the time. Brother Smith is willing to do whatever it takes to be free of his addiction.
Man, do I ever have a testimony of the Word of Wisdom. It is truly one of the MOST important commandments we could ever keep. When the Word of Wisdom is not kept, it prevents the person from having the Spirit (most important thing) and it destroys the family. The effects of it affects everyone else who loves that person. This is another example to me of our Heavenly Father's huge amount of love for us to give us these commandments to protect us and keep us happy. After all, "men are that they might have joy." (2 Nephi 2:25).
I want you all to know how much I love you all. Dad, Mom, Sheila, Steven, Erika and Rachel - you all mean the world to me! This Sunday in Relief Society we had a lesson on eternal families and it made me think of all of you. It made me think of how short a time this life is and how much I don't want this to be the end of being together. We are a family. We are meant to be together forever. The thought of that not happening just makes me want to cry. I love you all with ALL of my heart and I want to be with you guys forever. I just wanted you to know that. I love you.
So as you can see this week has been pretty stressful. I also had to give a talk in Sacrament meeting on asking questions at every meeting we attend in the church. I thought it went well; I got a few compliments on it so I hope everyone else got something from it too. I hope they got what they needed to learn from the spirit. But I opened my talk with a scripture from 1 Nephi 11: 2 "And the Spirit said unto me: Behold, what desirest thou?" And I really thought about that for a bit. What desirest thou? Heavenly Father is constantly asking us that same exact question. So think about it. What desirest thou? What do you really need to know? Ask that question in your next meeting that you will attend in the church and I promise you that by the power of the Holy Ghost it WILL be answered. After you see it work for you (because it will) I would love to hear your experiences on that. :)
We had an excellent Zone Conference this past Tuesday. We had a Preach My Gospel Chase with two Zones and it was sooo fun! But my goodness, I got exactly what I needed as well. President Griffiths talked on something that I personally have been struggling with and I felt the Spirit SO strong! I knew Heavenly Father was trying to help me in my concerns and challenges. Hopefully next week I'll share some insights because I don't have them today with me. Sorry! Thank you for everything. You are the BEST.
Love Always, Sister Teresa A. Kullick